Thursday, July 28, 2011

Breathtaking

Shroud me in snow, in casket-clouds
Oh winter!
                 I am yours
The breathtaking wind blows
Silent but for the trembling
In my throat

My love took winter's hand
Winter took my love away

Fall fell too quickly
So I asked the Spring to hurry
Winter spills so thick
                                like night
Bury the world
In a suit of white

The grace of snow, stars sink
and ring around the chimney smoke
My love lay perfected
A statue draped in white-rose-petal-skin

My love took winter's name
Winter took my love away

Fall fell too quickly
So I asked the Spring to hurry
Winter spills so thick
                                like night
Bury the world 
In a suit of white

Winter's deep is undisturbed
Sleep,
Love,
Drift away.

A Loss of Understanding

Here's the deal: I am deeply confused by life at this moment.  One might ask, 'Aren't you always?"  And the correct response to that is yes, I am.  But right now I am as lost as ever.  But lost isn't necessarily a bad thing.

Lately, I have been having dreams about people I know (and don't know), and then when I wake up those people happen to appear that day.  Sometimes they're even the first people I see.

Lately, I've been writing more songs than have ever been possible for me to write in a year, all within the span of a couple months.  This excites me.  It also concerns me that every song is going to suck...which leads to the next interesting puzzle piece.

Today, just now in fact, Liz left for work and then came back immediately to deliver me a letter; there was no return address.  I opened the letter and it was addressed:  Dear Present Jake.  The content of the missive was a small collection of encouraging ideas and personal meditations.  The letter was written by Future Jake.

Now.  I am not one for too much unreasonable foolishness, so I have to wonder who actually wrote this letter.  I would love to believe that it is from my future self but I am certain that there is no hope for my handwriting, because whoever penned that letter writes neatly.  This letter brings to my attention features of myself which I, while aware of them, try to either ignore or accept as fixed structures.  Am I such a mess?

The most bewildering thing!?  Liz's Grandfather gave me his old Crown Victoria yesterday.  He gave me a car.  It was his birthday yesterday too.  How can anyone deserve such kindness and luck?  How can such a debit be repaid to the universal store of energy?  How can I live more graciously and gracefully?

Sunday, July 17, 2011

This Meal brought to you by Five Points' CSA

Thai Peanut Basil Tofu w/ Garlic Green Beans and Golden Cherry Tomatoes.


For the Tofu:
2 thumbs of ginger (or just one if you're Andre the Giant)
1 big clove garlic
1 tbsp. plum vinegar**
1/3 cup tamarind juice***
1 tbsp. sesame oil
1 tbsp. brown sugar or agave
3 tbsp. peanut oil
1/3 cup peanut butter
1/4 - 1/3 cup water
1 block extra firm tofu.  (I use Twin Oaks because it's localer than other things and has a great texture.)
1 handful Basil leaves.

Sauce
THROW it all in a blender or food processor.  If you don't have either, then grate or mince the ginger, mince the garlic and whisk it all together in a bowl.  You can make that ahead of time and fridge it, or make it right before hand.

**I only have plum vinegar because it was on mad discount at Organic Food Depot.  If you don't have it, I would use rice vinegar and a little soy sauce.  Notice that there isn't any salt or soy sauce in that recipe.  That's because the plum vinegar is heavily salted, so if you don't use plum, make sure you add some sea salt or soy sauce, otherwise it might be a bit bland.

***The tamarind juice is from soaking fresh tamarind in hot water.  If using tamarind, you'll want a golf ball sized lump.  If you can't get fresh tamarind, you can get tamarind concentrate or paste at most international grocers.  Be warned though, you only need a teaspoon or so of the concentrate.  If you can't or don't want to get tamarind, it's hard to substitute but I would suggest squeezing in some fresh lime juice.

Tofu
1). SLICE the tofu like this:

2). HEAT a skillet between Low and Medium and put the slices in.  The goal is to let them heat slowly, without oil, in order to remove the excess water.  This method also can give the tofu a crispy brown crust, and again without oil.  This step can be omitted in exchange for your favorite method of preparing tofu.

3). CUT the tofu again, except this time into cubes.

Put it together
1). Throw the basil, tofu cubes and sauce in the same skillet you used before, and cook on medium high until the sauce thickens to your liking.  Yum.

(Spicy if you want) Garlic Green Beans and Tomatoes
2 cups fresh green beans
2 cups fresh cherry or grape tomatoes
1 tbsp. crushed garlic OR 2 cloves finely minced
1 tbsp. your favorite high temperature oil (peanut or canola or coconut)
1 tbsp. soy sauce
1 tsp. - 1 tbsp. crushed chili flakes or sriracha (optional but highly suggested.  just do it)

1). HEAT oil in wok or frying pan on ludicrously high setting and throw everything in.
2). COOK and stir and cook and stir until vegetables get roasty and dark colored.  When the tomatoes start bursting and their sauce bubbles, you are done!

Serve meal with basmati rice or jasmine or whatever you like.  Enjoy.

Saturday, July 2, 2011


That's the Chinese word for 'enough.'  Pronounce it like 'Go!'

I don't have much to say in this entry, just thinking about the idea of enoughness.  Whatever that is.

Enough can be understand as: sufficient to meet a need or satisfy a desire.  You know that, we all do, but I am talking about the bigger 'enough.'  It comes from a Proto-Indo-European root '-nek' (to reach, to attain).

Sometimes it takes learning a word in another language to refocus and examine what the meaning really is; what is means to me.

Oh also, if you break down that chinese word into parts, here's how it goes:

句 (jù) - sentence & 多 (duo) - many.  Many sentences = enough.

Say less, mean more?